I must be either really bored or really lonely, blogging two days in a row for a person like me, it's extremely weird. Perhaps some time later my blog will be my new best friend, for sharing things that are hard to tell others. Plans canceled, mood ruined, so I stayed at home the entire day. Turns out there wasn't anyone or anything to cheer me up today, the effect of dramas didn't last either.

Personal taste taught me a lot. It may seem naive to learn things from dramas, but there are at least some parts that are realistic right. It's about a girl whose best friend almost married her boyfriend. Turns out her best friend wasn't actually in love with her boyfriend, just in love with the guy whom the girl describes about all the time. And it suddenly hit me that, love just seems to make you think the person is so awesome that you think he is perfect. But the fact is, life isn't a fairytale. Prince charming isn't as perfect as he seems. You'll always end up being disappointed, not because he did anything but because you thought he was the perfect guy whom you hoped he was. I guess the person living with those hopes is the one at fault, for not being realistic.

I needed a break today. Not because of anything anyone did. I just realised I was being more and more reliant on others. I shouldn't end up being so desperate that somebody's absence will make me cry. One desperate girlfriend was more than enough, there isn't a need for another one.