Not insomnia exactly, just too many thoughts on my mind to fall asleep. Read this status update from facebook that day and it said something like "though you may see somebody smiling and laughing throughout the day, that very same person could be crying to sleep at night". I guess it's kind of true for many people, well me at least. Sometimes in front of others, you act normally as though it's just another day in your life, but deep down inside you just feel like sitting at the corner of your room, disconnected from the rest of the world and crying for hours and hours. Perhaps I'm exaggerating, but seriously that is what I want. I'm not emo, just feeling melancholy.
Everything just appears to be a disappointment today. It's just getting on my nerves and giving me mood swings. Sometimes I feel like it could last forever, but now I don't see it anymore. I wonder to myself, whether this was the best choice I made, or just another mistake hiding in my delusion. Every once in a while, I ask myself whether I'm supposed to be left alone to feel this way. It doesn't feel like there's somebody by my side for me, just somebody who isn't available and not in need. I may have no rights to complain, but sometimes I feel like it's nothing more than words.
At every 11:11 I caught, I wished I could have you back.
